My 12 MONTHS of 2010

My 12 MONTHS of 2010

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The last page of this new millenium's first decade,

With a rhyme i'll rewind as the new year advents:

On a cup of cappuccino and Holmes of Guy Ritchie

Met up my dream song in the month of January

But no hopes too high, not all dreams to keep

'Cuz, he had already found his valentine for February

So back to my dearest books, my companion through thick & thin

And by March had crashed through GATE succesfully

Within few days had options and Lab.s to choose from

Before April, was already on with the training period

All along waited to become the scholar eagerly

Which i was appointed on May, eventually

June saw my efforts to settle in

In July, grew a year older t'wards the silver lining

August was about hard work, friends and indianized Austen

Also letting go of you.....my toughest decision

At the end of September, i was wide awake

When some questions were answered in vague

October & November brought in the usual breath of festive air

Tagged alongwith stress, work and my treasured adventure

December was time for a strong stand to take

And left my job, for a new begining, My big step!!!!

So here with a hope of new dreams and success in year ahead

I wrap up with the famous quote: "All's well that ends well"

WHEN, IN LOVE

WHEN, IN LOVE

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When,

The world looks so much bright

And everything feels alright

You dream about him all nights and days

And his thoughts light up amidst the haze

You drop your tears at his pains

And his smile brings one on your face

Yearning for your name in his song

While his is etched in your heart all along

You have a crazy bumpy ride

But you don't care if he is at your side

You wish hand in hand walking with him on path of life

Willing to give your everything at his smallest strife

All you want is to grey with him

Live that happily ever after

Then,

Be sure 

Cupid's arrow have on you hit

You've fallen into the lovepit

Theres no more escaping it

Do follow your hearty instinct

Go say him the magic words

Just the way you mean it

Else your silence will cost you your dear

Gone away far very far than he was ever near

So don't waste the time and the opportune

To tell him....I LOVE YOU

NUMB

NUMB

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So calm and quite

Like the river before a tide

Feet stuck in quicksand

Not even the last straw in hand

Free falling into an empty pit

Where the depth knows no end to it

Hands of time strike on twelve

Past, Present and Future fight their duel

No eyelash flickers

No heartbeat drums

In a stupor gaze

I am numb and still

Just like the stagnant water

Which never runs up or downhill

THE END

THE END

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It started with a smile

That caught my eyes

Then it turned into a song

I could dance along

All day, all night .. forever i'd thought

Waking up to his kiss

To bed with his dreams

Write a rhyme to his name

On a sheet of white plain

Lengthy verses .. forever i'd thought

Laugh at his funny ways

Cry together in our pains

Build our abode of love 

To be that perfect pair of dove

Blessed .. forever i'd thought

Our story to live 

The life we could lead

A journey we'd travel

Bare feet on roses and gravels

Happily ever after .. forever i'd thought

But the threads broke even before they'd be spun

So even after a decade 

I rather not hold on

Not cling onto your memoirs

Away I run, Away from You and the LoveStory

Towards an inevitable, The End

THE FALL

THE FALL

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I keep taking this fall

Into the nothingness thats too bland

Theres no stopping me,

The Alice in her own wonderland

I DON'T CARE

I DON'T CARE

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Wished for your love,

In my every prayer

But now, No more do I care

Dream I used to,

About moments we could share

But now, No more do I care

Thought my love was,

One of a kind, very rare

But now, No more do I care

Always wanted you,

By my side, very near

But now, No more do I care

In spite of my frowns,

A smile I would wear

But now, No more do I care

Loosing you my love,

Was my greatest fear

But now, No more do I care

When you were gone,

I did shed my tears

But now, No more do I care

Your heart you gave her,

It was hard to bear

But now, No more do I care

Against that lucky gal,

Had jealousy in here

But now, No more do I care

For long I’ve been on my best behavior

Damn! No more, I really do not care

Gonna live my life without you dear

‘Cause, now no more do I care!!

Goodbye, My Love

Goodbye, My Love

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She had to give up her only dream song

Although she had waited a decade long

She loved him enough to let him go

About her feelings now he’ll never know

The story began when she fell for him

And thought he would too, just like in her dream

But teenage crushes and dreams you know,

Are never ever meant to become true

But she fooled herself and was blinded by love

Wished good Lord would do some magic from above

Magic indeed was getting a second chance

And this time she was sure she’ll have her first dance

Her favorite song played and she walked to the door

He was waltzing with his girl on the dance floor

She closed the doors and turned her back

Her tears said it.. what in words she lacked

Love and Life, never is easy ride

Some win, some lose and some have rules to abide

But in love, even loss is a sweet prize

Even though it hurts, I am glad you are happy with your love on your side.

ALL THAT

ALL THAT

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A happy soul, who dreams beyond

All the reality called life

Makes her rules, sticks to them

Always wearing her sunny smile

Sound and words loves them both

Can make them do a rhyme

Music and colors, she searches everywhere

They inspire her every time

She is as weak, as she is strong

She is all good and bad

But whatever she is, she is herself

Tries to find happiness even in times called sad

Yes! Exactly that’s how she is

And I love being all that!!

CONFUSED!

CONFUSED

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Is this what I was supposed to?

Suddenly I am a misfit and then I am not

Is this what I dreamt of?

May be yes, may be no

Is this what I planned to become?

Change can be bad and good, you never know

Is this what I wanna live for now?

Am I that dedicated or should I bow

Is this what the divine blessed me with?

Feeling lucky, but responsibilities scare

What am I doing here?

Why don’t I escape there?

I sometimes don’t know

The pressure is high, the prize is good

Yet I am so very confused!

No! I can’t fall out now

Need the headstrong side of me

To wake up from fairytale themes

And no more escaping it

Gotta live life more realistically!

EMBRYONEMESIS

EMBRYONEMESIS

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It was a molecular and chemical event

Where for the first time the egg and sperm met

They developed a bond very strong

Then a fresh new embryo was made

Over time and blastulations

It turned into a fetus of cells

The tissues and organs gradually formed

With the chromosomes determining its genetic fate

In this story there was no chromosome "Y"

It was a double X fetus, a female child

The story could have continued with chapters more

But some morons stopped it at this juncture here

They dont care! The illiterate ones

They can't hear a little heart beat in there

How else could these ruthless psychopaths..

Forget that they were born of a female mother's care?

Nocturnal Psyche

NOCTURNAL PSYCHE

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After a long day of an usual life

The night lullabies you to sleep

And although you rest your flesh and blood

The mind may not be at peace

Physically you lay still and free

But mentally occupied in thoughts

Reflect on the day gone by

Smiling at gains or reminiscing the loss

Then walks in through the doors

Reasons, songs or some poetic rhymes

You keep them to yourself in your mind

The nocturnal creative psyche

Heaps of stuff thus gets stored in there

Some other nights you may again rewind

But when does the sleep overtake?

And when chronicles of dream unwind?

The mystery is yet unsolved to me

As it is…. Dawn already? My wake up time!

ONCE AT SIXTEEN

ONCE AT SIXTEEN
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It was a winter day all cold

I was a teen on my sixteen threshold

Saw you for the first time in a new light

While my friends were cheering our team in a fight

In that geeky battle of wit, facts and whiz

Found myself quizzing my new feelings

The weird feeling of loss although the game we won

Was there as I lost my heart, I gave it to you

The battlefields changed but the game was same

We met few more times again and again

Never got a chance to say a good hello

And it was already a goodbye to that life for a new

A brand new college life was to start

So friends said: “Forget your crush sweetheart! “

School life was over, I had to move on

Away from fantasy and my only dream song!

By some divine mesh, in my second decade

We caught up with each other yet again

This time we strummed the friendship note

But already since sixteen been sailing a loveboat

It was therefore hard to pretend all along

Then I knew it wasn’t a mere crush, not at all!

Gradually, got to know bits and bytes about you

Your humor, talent, your girl and how happy in love are both of you

That was it . . . ! the world had crashed,

It was high time I pulled the plug and went for acoustic bass

Too long I had been blindly swimming in this pool

How could I not see? I’d been such a fool!

My foggy selfishness obscured my sight

Forgot my love was unrequited from one side

Now I know things got to end

Feelings have to be murdered and dreams to be dead

Never ever want you to fall for me . . .

Just because I had feelings for thee

Time and again our paths may cross

But never I’ll confess my pain and remorse

My blank expressions and neutral smile, will give no clue

That once at sixteen I fell in love with you!

BROKEN WINGS

BROKEN WINGS

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However hard I try

Just cannot understand why

Honest! This is no lie

But I’m just not able to fly

Been always the simple and regular type

The burden of expectations heaped on me

By you and people from time to time

Maybe….thats the reason why

 I’m just not able to fly

One day!! I’ll grow my wings, yeah mine!!

And not be just a rebel who voices but sighs

That day I’ll reach my goal in the heights

But till then, I just can’t fly….!

WILL TO LIVE AGAINST DEATH

WILL TO LIVE AGAINST DEATH

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Am I the human I used to be?

Why am I still here?

I keep writhing in this pain

Yet, why am I breathing the air?

I am crying here all broken and hurt

Yet I am not dead (….just like I feared!)

Always knew I had a will power too strong

That would shield my life so dear

My strength and will to live over-powering my body’s wish

Voices are loud, but it is my desperation

That so clearly I can right now hear

And I wonder why I still wish to live!?

That’s when my open eyes shed the one last tear

FIRST LOVE

FIRST LOVE

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They say, First love don’t last;

But I know, You are here to stay.

They say - First love don’t trust!

But I know, In You.. I have my faith

They say:" First love is just a crush..

You two will get over it soon"

They say:" First love, keep it hush..

You’ll forget it as Sun sets for Moon!"

But My Love, I don’t care

All what they have to say

Cuz, I got

Just this one heart to give away

And when that’s gone..

How am I to go about?

For a second time at the end of the day?